yamanai ame da neeee

yuuki.
Sunday, March 30, 2008

BABARA ONG YINING HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!
today the aunty turns 19. taking one more step closer to her ah sao hood. haha i dont think she'll be reading this but have a great day ok! :)
hope you're feeling wayyy better than before.
tho i never really asked you abt it, but i think i kinda understand abit of what you're gg through.
SO LETS GET THROUGH IT TGT. WE CAN SO DO IT WOMEN!! jia you!

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anw.
OMG yuuki is damn sad, but so nice :) im finishing it soon!!! part..6.
sano looks much better then usual in yuuki. i think he short hair nicer. altho its that kind of dragon ball explosive hair... hahah but anything is better then long and stick to the face kind. hm.
but he's an ass in the show la.. act cool and nonchalant. IRRITATING. but he turn nice in the end
hahah... kame is the best of course, tho i didn't like his hair. he can act pls!!!
i still think he acts better then yamapi. hahaha im not being biased loh.. its my objective opinion.
omg haha i kept tearing during the show cause its so touching..........
'I plan to be his friend till i'm an old man, naturally joking at our pensions and laughing at each other. So how can I let him die so easily?' OMG tt part i was so tearing up. oh mannnn so sad.
and when they did the pictures ahhhhhhhhhh ))): cry and cry ):
'Do you have any fears? I never thought that darkness could be so scary.' AHHH major crying.
my heart got the sour sour feeling. SO SAD PLEASE.
haha i cannot watch this kind of shows one loh.. all the illness kind. makes me so miserable!!

EH i didnt go to work in the end... wonder if i will get scolded on monday. shitsss.
ah well.

anw winnie.
Ii desu ne is thats a great idea. hahahah.. you can count on me is makasete. messed up.

to comprehend the value of one year,
just ask a student who failed his entrance exam.
to comprehend the value of one month,
just ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
to comprehend the value of one week,
just ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
to comprehend the value of one hour,
just ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
to comprehend the value of one minute,
just ask the people who have missed their stop on the train.
to comprehend the value of one second,
just ask a person who managed to avoid an accident just in time.
to comprehend the value of one tenth of a second,
just ask the person who ended up with a silver medal at the olympics.

yuuki is a must watch. must must must watch.

12:13 PM

FIESTAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008

OH MY SHIT I SAW SO MANY PEOPLE.
lets see.. there are juniors,
jolene, jasmine, kelly, tongtong and some red batch people..
then there are seniors,
yuqin, fengru, erm....... grace, shit la cant rmb. sandra, christine, and some white badge ones.
then there are BLUE BADGES!!!! heheh hahahaha. so happy please.
4unity ppl.. so many! charlotte wendy jieying winnie matong xinrong betty charissa cheryl toy..
guides ppl... jialing, cheryl, xinpei, ming yee.....
then of course there's celebs...
and teachers. mr foo came!!! with foo yihn. hahah. so cute...
and ex-students, who keep touching me and whining at me to buy their rubbish. eerghhhhhhh.
they don't wash their hands ok!!! i know, cause i was on toilet duty before and i see them walking out of the toilet without even gg near the sinks. EEW. i could so see the bacteria transference.

it was hot, sticky, squeezy, crowded business, just like a proper funfair should be!!!
and i got this super duper cool st nicks file. im gna go show it off to the world soon.
im so glad i didnt invite anyone. AHAHA sorry but it'll be a pain to bring ppl ard.. cannot be with the good ole friends and just relive my stnicks times and my lovelovelove for the school.

never go sit the ride in the end. hahah quite sad. its TEN FREAKING BUCKS.
but nvm, winnie is right. if we're going to disneyland who gives a shit abt this uimpressive ride?!
yay. i feel better now.

i saw the idiotic zhang person at the end, when we were leaving, and pls la i can sense tt she knows i dont like her. omg. haha she was radiating this 'go away' aura. ah well. i dont care what she thinks about me. but im glad she knows i dont like her. she needs to know la.. this kinda ppl.
and hahah everyone knows i dont like her.. saw shuxian and the first thing she said when she saw me was that she helped me take revenge HAHA. make her wait outside the class for long long long time. hope she felt as shitty as i did when she left me standing there for so long. BITCH!

yay so glad i wenttttt :))
hahahahahah. ok off to read my jap!!!!!
oooooohhhhhh cheryl just told me this yr end got campfire.. the theme is mystery.
...
yah. i know.
hahah then we were saying, when everyone go there, the field is empty.
there is no campfire.
~~~mystery~~~

(haha matong, i used it so well right. your ~~~)
aiyah i dont care whats the theme la. as long as there's a fire, there are guides ppl, there are campfire songs, theres fun and laughter, IM A HAPPY KID. yes??
yes. ok but i still hope it goes well of course. its sn guides afterall.. wonder how the standard is like now. not too much of a diff i hope. I HOPE. im praying they will impress me.. hahah.. and maybe they will.. so yah. dont made any presumptions first.

SO MANY THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO THIS YEARRRR. omg im so loving this.

9:41 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

i finally applied for uni.
ahhh decided to just ignore what everyone says. hahah go with my heart.
heart tells me, passion is impt but it doesnt put food on the table, yes?
elephantine stone off my shoulders.

anw, on to more exciting stuff. NEW JOB
omg training for the cpf board is TOUGH LIKE SHIT.
its like, there's so many schemes we have to know abt?! its impossible!
the notes is one thick stack of disgusting thing... and so far im just being paid to sit there and listen to lectures and nod off after awhile. yeahhhhhh. the other trainees are quite nice, i wonder when they're gna start acting normally, not all prim and proper when in front of a stranger. i'm damn friendly already ok! during lunch i was the one talking the most :/ :/ haha. whatever.
starting from tml, we're gna do call centre duty.
IT IS FREAKING SCARY...... its like oral exams all over again, only this time the person on the other line can scream at you if they want.
haha ok but tml is still attachment, so we sit there and listen in on other ppl's convos. sounds fun, until we have to do it on our own anw. hahah wish me luck man.

haha anw, on sunday went out with winnie.
had so much fun! yay. hahahahah. we were so high looking at the jap stuff... can you imagine if we went japan?! i think we'll act like lunatics on the streets MANS. yay i can't wait. can scream and shout and no one will recognise or understand us AHA. '
and im serious abt learning jpnese. gg to go get the dummies book and do it.
I AM DETERMINED. if i can i will pick it up in uni.. haha...

ok i think we're no longer gg turkey......... gg new york instead. oh well.

9:54 PM

one letter to kame, one to kat-tun and one to yamapi.
Saturday, March 22, 2008

OMG WINNIE JUST TOLD ME WE CAN WRITE TO THE JOHNNY'S PEOPLE
IM SO GONNA DO IT AND YOU KNOW WHAT THEY WILL REPLY

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT

ok im not maniacal yet. maybe after i get their reply (if i do) i will be HAHAHAHAHA
eh suggest to me what to write leh.

hi kame, i love love love love you very very much <3<3
PLEASE MARRY ME.

must write with BLOOD. HAHA i'll be one of those fans that wrote him a blood letter. then next time when they talk about freaky fans maybe kame will talk about the crazy person from singapore who wrote him a letter with blood and AHAH i can sit at home watching veoh and go 'OH MY SHIT KAME IS TALKING ABOUT ME!!!!!!' and now he'll rmb me forever and ever and ever :))))

and i'll write one to kat-tun,
junno i think you're so super cute. i wish they would stop bullying you, you poor thing, especially koki. but koki you're still very cool, i love your hair. maru, you're one of the adorable ones alsooooo :) jin, please start looking like a nicer person on tv and ueda, stop acting cool.
kame, you know how much i adore you (now you know who the blood letter it from *winks*)

maybe i'll do one for yamapi.. but i dunno what to say to him. SEE HOW.

i will frame the letter that they replied (if they replied) and hang it on my bedroom wall! IT'LL BE SO COOL. i will take photo of it, with it and like show it off to everyone THIS IS KAME'S VERY OWN HANDWRITTING OK, i will tell everyone HEHEHEHEHE.

tml winnie and i are gna write :)

--> 1.30pm
see, this is the reason why i need to write such a letter to him

how can you not?

12:09 PM

Friday, March 21, 2008

OMG NODAME CANTABILE IS SO GOOD.
its like the only show i watch that i don't ffwd AT ALL.
everyone shld watch it omgggggggggggggggggg.
when i hear the orchestra play so so so so nicely my hair will all stand and when nodame does her pieces so well and wins the competitions my hair will stand also! ah and my palms were clammy when she was playing her final round. aiyoh she's damn cute. SO NICE.
and and when the underdogs (s-oke haha) held a successful concert my hair stand also!!!!
cause they play so nicely :)))))

i love love love the show totally. hahah pls its the only show i'm watching purely for the plot itself. which is so rare. ok its not rare, it has never happened before! haha even tho winnie says the guy is gdlooking. haha but i think ok only la. typical gdlooking guy. eeeeee omg the show is darn good.

oh oh and i think that e cute hana kimi gay guy is acting in it. winnie! is it him?? HAHA so weird to see him so serious playing his violin after his goofy performance in hana kimi! BUT HAHA HE'S GAY IN THIS SHOW TOO.

--> 247am
I FINISHED WATCHING THE SHOW
oh mannnnnnn i was sobbing like a baby at the end of their Beethoven symphony no.7 :(
it reminded me of graduation and blah blah all the stupid problems im facing right now
i was so sad please it was damn touching esp the last last part ahhhhhhh.. when they spun their cello and their doublebass things omggggggg :(
i feel so good after crying. HAHA.

1:17 AM

anyway
Thursday, March 20, 2008

i haven't been online since i went to toy's house and had a girly girly night (i feel horrified saying this, but yah) on... monday.
i got a lot of things from her.. like erm pokemon. yellow version HAHA
and im playing it on gameboy COLOUR so outdated i know ok. but whatever la its damn fun. except except, it runs out of batts without warning, like just now, i played 2 hours straight and defeated the silph building team rocket thing AND IT RAN OUT OF BATTS OH MY SHIT. i swear and swear. that gary got SO powerful all his things were like level 35 and above!!!! SHITTS. ok so i stopped cause i got annoyed...
so children what do you learn? BLOODY SAVE YOUR GAME.

another thing that i got from her is my super super extremely outdated bday present that was supposed to be given when we were in sec 3. HAHAHA thats four yrs ago. omg but its still damn sweet.
diana toy and xinrong made it tgt, like all the stars and inside the paper they filled it with energy lyrics, lame things they said and all the cute memories :)))
omg its damn sweet. its still not complete but whatever, i got the paper which all the sentences were written on, there's 591 :0 SO SWEET. ah thank you.
XINRONG'S MAID THREW ALL HER STARS AWAY. hahahahah so typically xinrong.
yes but love love love you guys.

many things have happened.
ytd i went for a job interview. and i got a new job.. signed the contract today.
starting work on monday.. ah im slightly nervous..
oh ytd, we had dinner for eunice. HAHA
it was smth like adeline and eunice went out tgt and adeline didn't tell eunice tt the rest of us were coming. so when they had to get sits in the restaurant, HAHA adeline had to tell the person there are 5 ppl coming... and she tried to convince eunice that she invited some hot guys HAHAHA when i saw her message i kept laughing!! by myself. on the train. everyone was staring. hahaha but it was damn funny! ok yah anw the dinner was great :)

i miss bitching abt shi fei. i enjoy being mean, cannot is it. hm.
that time i was on the bus when i suddenly recall that there was once we were playing touchrug, and i got the ball and ran and ran, till i realise that no one was chasing me and they were all laughing. it then dawned on me that i was running towards my own goal. HEH.

OH
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EUNICE AND KUNDA :)))))))))))))
you two are both such great people! YAY.

10:16 PM

junnosuke!
Monday, March 17, 2008

haha, he's such a handsome looking boy i just need to show him off.
anw, energy was on tv that day and oh my shit shuwei is as cute as everrr :)
he screamed when he saw the mask hahaha SO CUTE :))))))
(diana if you're reading this, kunda was incredibly adorable too)

ok. yah. today, i went to nus open house.. with adeline and eunice.
haii. psych takes 6 yrs to finish... i cant imagine studying when i'm 26.
ppl get MARRIED at 26. what shld i dooooo...
decisions decisions decisions..
aiyoh im such a whimp when it comes to these. nvm. yah.

so, shuduan and i got bored and were trying to rmb the characters in our lit textsss.
and hahahah we realise we can hardly rmb two shits abt the characters.
had to resort to digging out my hmt to look for the driver's name (nick btw) and the bestfriend's name(the red flag on the hill!). and rita and cora! HAHA
and then who is the driver in Guide?! omgggg really cant rmb.
i keep thinking it starts with V but cause there's Velan.. ARGH. vicknesh. HEH. i won't be able to sleep tonight if i cant find out. hahaha you know its those cheap little annoyances that run ard in your head. IM THERE BUT YOU CANT RECALL ME HEHEHE. oh shut up. enough ah.

i forgot what i wanna blog abt.
ok but nvm. i'm hungry again.... no one is online to distract me.
OH WELL.
eh i wanna go rollerblade. suddenly feel like.
ohoh. yanni, GOODLUCK FOR TMLL YES? hahah eat well for life!
ok when you read this its alr too late. hm.
ah im aching like hell.

3:24 AM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

die i'm in love with kame.

see the was he was playing with the otters!! i wanna marry him alr.
if i see him in japan i will propose. ok i must hurry go learn what is 'marry me' in jpnese.
<3

10:02 PM

can i just stay a normal, jc, sec school student forever.
it's like, my life is rushing up to meet me and i'm that thin coconut tree stuck in a flash flood.
ok i never thought i'd be describe as thin but ah well.
i'm very thin when it comes to things like decisions.
OK point is, i don't want to move on MOVE ON WOMAN MOVE ON.
nooooooooooooo i don't want to move on.

its like, i tried so hard to stay in contact with all my friends..........
i try so hard to make sure i'm in contact with my sec school friends...........
and now, we're all gonna be going further from each other.
AGAIN. distance is such a horrible thing. HORRIBLE.

uni applications. i talk to everyone and ask them for opinion.
my mum's forcing me to talk to every-one-individual cousin i have and i obligate.
(woe to me if they ever read this.)
but. i honestly don't think what they say will affect me at all,
i mean they are all on very different tracks and every other arts major will sound strange to them... and then tell me, what is the point?? it only makes me feel worse.
WORSEEE DOESN'T SHE UNDERSTAND. no obviously not.
but i'm such a conflicted person. i will also feel horrible if no one shows any concern regarding my decision. omg i'm such a bad person who wants every good thing in life.
i should go shave my head and become a monk.
空既是空。ok whatever.. i'm feeling highly irritated now so don't come and irritate me.

i must be having post results depression.
been sleeping at 5 everyday. and the best thing is that, i still wake up very early without alarm clock. i don't sleep late into the noon. AIYOHHHH i cannot be like this. but no matter how i exercise its no use. anw, there are many things running abt in my mind now.
i'm also simultanoeusly high abt kame and his sexy voice in seishun amigo. (haha)
and then i'm also pissed off because, i know i'm just drifting and drifting apart from some people.
this sucks. sucks sucks sucky shit.
im socially dysfunctional when it comes to friendship i think.
aahah no matter how i try i dont think people think i'm trying.
they don't think i'm trying, so they don't try also. so both don't try. so nothing happen loh.
like that. very simple one. simple to say and simple to do also.

i need someone who will stop faulting me for my shortcomings.
but i know. that before i find someone like that, i must stop faulting others for theirs.
see i told you i want everything good. haha.
i know most people want everything good, but im just not good at pretending that i dont.
you know? i'm just like that. ahh often i've been told i'm too frank for my own good and i think, whats wrong with being frank? now i know. i know now because all successful people are people who lead you to think what they want you to think. and when i say success i mean it also in friendship kinship and any kinds of ship.
not all kinds of honesty is good in a relationship.

omg i'm being frank again. haha.. i mean, no one admits to being a hypocrite.
but i guess we all are, one way or another.
and maybe hypocrite is not even the right word.. more like, we protect our real selves from this dirty, disgusting, maddening, polluted and sycophantic world by wrapping it deep into our own consiousness. its not hypocrisy i guess. its just, self defence.
haha when you kill someone for self defence you don't go to prison right?
so its not illegal? (do you go to prison?? ok i dont know)

IM SO EDGY. and i'm so disgusted with myself....
spending time alone is good. so i don't piss anyone off.

12:49 AM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

i got a new section on the bloggy!
whoots.
anw i just finished The Namesake OMG its damn good.
abt indian migrants(to america). hahaha i love reading about asians.

anw, today i spent a good (cold and wet also) day by myself!
love being on my own. its liberating.

just now, i went to visit the mynah blog and im so touched that its still updated and everything :)))))) even tho i don't know the people updating it (man, im old). and and they're still doing the mynah maniacs cheer which is like SO cool cause i never knew it could pass down until now. HAHA i feel so proud that we are such an essential part of mynah history (even tho they don't know it i think). hahahah I LOVE GUIDESSS.

anw now, there's this mad fella shouting his lungs out downstairs.
and YES i can hear it from 11 floors up.
he's going something like 'wooo ah worhhh AHH'
SHUT UP ALREADY

(sorry need to add smth)
hahah its kinda for kristy. to prove to her he's gdlooking. heh.

ok ignore that fact that asaoka looks ugly in a half blink here.
isn't the guy kinda hottttt. hahahahaha :)

9:31 PM

omg last post was my 333THHHH. what a number.
anw, im so hungry. and all i can do is sit here and complain abt it with matong.

[raMEN]- my head aches says:
hungry
-[brrr]- chi city; won't speak says:
hahahhhahahah
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
IVE GOT DURIANS
-[brrr]- chi city; won't speak says:
EAT
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
NO CANNOT
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
FAT AH
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
so late somemore
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
!!!!
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
no matong dont encourage me!!!
[raMEN]- my head aches says:
nooooooooo
-[brrr]- chi city; won't speak says:
HAHAHHAHAHHA
-[brrr]- chi city; won't speak says:
FINE NO LITING
NOOOO~~~~

as you can see.

tml is a busy day. going go do some exercise then meet jieying to give her my lit notes then go granny's house to cut hair wooooooooo. and im STILL awake.

today morning i woke up at 1. 1?!
i thought there was smth wrong with my clock. WHAT AM I DOING IN BED AT 1?!
but there's nothing wrong with my clock. so i started to get confused and irritated and i went to my mum and demanded from her the reason she never come wake me up.
but she was so obsessed with her most amazing solitaire game she couldn't be bothered to talk to her only child at home now. SKNASDLKFN.
and then after i got over my irritation and shock, i realise i have nothing to do.
and i went to the library and borrowed more books.. ah i shld really finish my Middlesex soon.

p.s everyone who tagged my board has names starting with L hahahahahah. thats damn cool.
sorry. random.

3:00 AM

fat stone in my heart
Saturday, March 08, 2008

so i did fine. not well, just fine.
i'm really really really really glad and relieved.. i believe there are some people out there who are disappointed about my results (ie. my tuition teacher) but i can't really relate with them. haha..

im just massively relieved i can get a place in uni, which was all that i was asking for.
my granny called and said she's so happy for me my dad and mum are happy my sister is happy my friends are happy for me so im happy happy too.
i really think a miracle just happened to me. i must have been a really good person in my past life.

but there's this nagging feeling. ahh i just cannot get rid of... what to do what to do?
i think time will heal all wounds, sometimes, words just can't do anything..

9:33 PM

KAME KAME KAMENASHIIIIIII
Tuesday, March 04, 2008

HAHA this one is simply adorable i couldn't stand it. the nun couldn't forget him and was imagining 5 different kames saying 'sister, i love you!' HAHAHA look at the boxer one right in the middle OMG SO CUTE and ridiculous and retarded :D
when they all appeared one by one i was laughing like crazy hahahahaha hehehe :))))

its so cute its my desktop pic now.
i even realigned all my icons so as to not block his beautiful faceeeeeeee.

8:34 PM

im now getting a taste of what my mother will become when she gets older.
SO fussy.

do everything for her she also wanna complain...
she woke me up at 11 today cause there was nothing to eat at home and she's hungry :x
i wonder what wld have happened if i weren't at home...

hahah my dad also cannot stand it, keep saying whatever you do also she got smth to complain about one. and then he started acting like a porter boy. HAHA so cute.
quite worried about her actually, she's just sitting at home with nothing to do... nothing to read nothing to watch nothing to play.. and she's acting so sick.. door also don't wanna open.
AIYOH. what's gna happen when im not at home tml.

12:10 PM

IM PISSED.
Monday, March 03, 2008

its like people can die without endearments.

one minute you're saying 'dear', 'i promise i will', another you're not keeping to your promises.
ok im not talking about myself but its just so frustrating how some people are forgiven more easily just cause they are usually so affectionate. isn't keeping your word to another a better show of concern and care.

people who can say sorry very easily don't usually mean what they say, because its just so simple for them. I JUST CANNOT STAND IT. argh.
if this world survives on that alone what does credit stand for?

ahhhhhhhhh it doesn't pay to be silent in concern does it?
pisses me off SO bad, especially when it happens on things that really matter.

6:23 PM

HEHE
Sunday, March 02, 2008

4:19 PM

so, ytd night i couldn't stand it and went to sleep super early. 1030 i think.
after taking medicine i was totally knocked out.

and i guess my body clock has become accustomed to sleeping nothing more then 6 hours therefore i woke up early early also. 3am++ HAHA. so funny. so i sat on my bed and tried all kinds of funny positions to make myself fall asleep but it was to nooo avail. i got up, at around 5 and went out to watch tv. wherein i started my tissue collection point. i never knew my body had SO MUCH WASTE LIQUIDS.
i call it BPB. bacteriafied plastic bag.

and then when the sky finally lightened, i was sitting there reading newspaper, when SUDDENLY. i saw a frog in our house. lo and behold, it was one of my father's stupid frogs again, bearing the uncanny ability to irritate the hell out of me. it ran somewhere and disappeared for awhile and i was so worried cause i thought it was gna rot and start to stink somewhere in the study room so we excavated all the things on the floor. and after 1 hour of searching WE FOUND IT. and yes, in the study room.
you sly little thing. here it is back in its proper place.

anw i thought i will put up what i made for my sister, since she saw it alr and loved it (of course)

my mummy keeps complaining she looks very ugly in the photo.

oh well. EH WINNIE i found the eng subs!!!
cause its like all the way at the bottom and i didnt bother to look. hahah yay.

12:57 PM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

OMG sushi prince doesn't have eng subs. look like chinese will have to do for me.

i've been eating too much junk for this 2 weeks.
skipping dinner and proper breakfast to eat old chang kee and left over cny stuff
omg. now my throat hurts like shittily and its affecting my nose and ears.
sneezing and sneezing. doesn't help that the bus ride home was sooo cold and sooo long.
everyone was looking at me cause i was sneezing and sniffing away, there was so much mucus but i had no tissue i wanted to cry :(
i need to sleep early, but i can't help myself.

i think one of the rudest things people can do is to slam the phone halfway through a conversation.
people who do that are so selfish and inconsiderate of the other party's feelings.
what am i, someone who's feelings can be manipulated like that??
GO AND DIE.

CLASS OUTING TODAY
omg kbox so fun so fun. actually i was the high-est. like jumping ard on the chair and rapping energy songs solo. oh well... it was all very entertaining for myself anyway. HAHA but we sang alot of dumb songs hahaha macarena, hit me baby one more time, wannabe, like a rose. and we laughed at all the dumb mtvs. wish delia stayed tho. no one to energy with me. so sad. NEXT TIME WE MUST GO AGAIN LAHHHH. not enough. i haven't sang a single sun yanzi song, or any blink182 songs, and not enough duets.
it was damn super fun.
and qt alot of ppl came, which is good.
liz
big amanda
small amanda
shuduan
delia
marcus
kristy
samuel
YAY.

9:49 PM